It's Like Being In a Cult

It is hard for me to understand how/why I was in this sort of relationship. But when I was in it, I had a totally different spin on things. I can't describe it other to say that it is like being brainwashed or hypnotized or something, like being in a cult, but if you've never had the misfortune of being in that sort of situation you still wouldn't know what it feels like or understand it. Depending on your age you may remember the Jonestown tragedy, and like most you probably wonder how so many people were coerced into murdering children and then killing themselves. When they first gave up control of themselves and their lives to the cult leader they began the process that ended with their deaths.

Being with an abusive person is just like that. They don't start out trying to kill you or kicking you down the stairs or spitting in your face...it's a mind-control process that starts like a snowball rolling down hill, starting with just a little and then picking up more and more steam until you look up and you're smashed by an avalanche.

I guess that's all I have to say about it right now. I do wish that more women felt empowered enough to take control of the situation...but when you're in it you feel like such a victim, so powerless.

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