Nerves

I swear to whatever deities that may exist Brian is getting on my nerves. I feel like I am the only one trying in this marriage sometimes. He's been acting all pissy because I've been so busy with work, telling me I'm always on the computer or going somewhere. Ok, excuse me, but what other choice do I have? I have to spend time with the kids, which means I get very little work done during the day. Plus I don't sleep well anyway so it makes sense for me to write and work at night. As far as my going out, meeting people, like uh, BOOKSTORE owners and the like, is very important for my business. And it's not like I don't try to do stuff with him, the past three weekends I was ready and willing to go out somewhere, and he was all like, I don't want to go out. Ok, whatever. So why act all salty when I try to get some actual work done? Brian is such an old man lately, all he wants to do is sit around watching WWF. Big whoop, Oh joy.

I suppose I should be glad that I don't have a husband who runs in and out of bars and clubs. Brian is a good man and a good father. He works, brings his money home, spends time with the kids and sometimes picks up after himself. He doesn't beat me or yell at me, and he's a great cook. Our intimate life is still hot after being together all these years. Everyone (like my mom, sisters, and friends, who I really need to keep out of my business) tells me that I should tell him how much I value him but I do not know how to do this without sounding patronizing. Plus it angers me that he is acting in such a traditional husband way, I've always made fun of women who had husbands they coddled and thanked for every little thing.

But ok, I'll try. This is the new Trula wife now. I'll do anything to save my marriage. Grrrrr. I'm going to practice saying this:

New Trula wife: "Watch wrestling? I would love to. What is The Rock up to these days? How 'bout the Hulkster, is he still around? You don't say!"
Old Trula wife: "Isn't there something else on? This is bullshit. It's so fake. And why do all the women wrestlers look like bimbos? Don't tell me you think that's cute."

New Trula wife: "No, I don't want to do anything tonight. The kids are at your mother's, let's just hang out here at the house. Just spending time with you is sheer joy."
Old Trula wife: "God! You are such an old man. How can you say with a straight face that you aren't even a little bit bored. Let's go dancing or to a show or something, the kids are at your mom's! No kids! Let's go somewhere, already! God! God! God!"

New Trula wife: "No, sweetheart, you didn't interrupt me. Yeah, I have 3 days of email to get through and I'd really like to finish this conference call with the printing company but no, dear, you come first."
Old Trula wife: "Why are you bothering me? When do you expect me to get this stuff done? Do you realize I am running a business here???"

So yeah, I am going to work on my tone and try to speak nicely to Brian at all times. I am sure that will improve our relationship. I know I sound harsh but yikes, he gets on my nerves sometimes.