Anticipation

I am trying very hard not to let Brian get on my nerves but I swear he does stuff just to get to me. Today he was telling Iyende something about taking a message if So-and-So called. Well, she is on punishment and cannot use the phone for a week, why would she answer it?? Ultra-duh! I'm sitting right there, why not ask me to take a message. True enough, I was working on the computer, so maybe he didn't want to interrupt me, but still.

Iyende told him she couldn't answer the phone, which he knew because we discuss disciplining the kids. It's not like I just decided on my own she couldn't use the phone, we decided together. He then told her to take the message again, and she responded the same way. So I yelled at Brian why was he asking her to take a message when he knew she was on punishment...he seemed pissed and just grabbed the phone and went upstairs. Grrrrrrr. I was very perplexed, but after a few minutes I went upstairs to apologize for yelling. Can't say I'm not trying. Did he apologize back? No.

We are supposed to go to this new marriage counselor this week. I am looking forward to it, I am anxious to hear what she has to say. I am also looking forward to her telling Brian all the stuff I've been telling him. Brian is a smart man, but how he walks around so unaware of his own issues is beyond me. This marriage counselor will not tell me anything about myself that I don't already know, negative and positive, but I bet Brian is going to be surprised. He thinks I am just talking out of my neck when it comes to him and his issues and how he interacts/reacts with me in this marriage, like he's just Mr. Perfect who never does anything wrong. It's amazing, it truly is.

Anyway I hope this will help...we have so much built-up animosity towards each other that we fight over simple stuff like today. Later on, though we had a really good conversation, it seemed almost like old times.